Heya, I'm Aud!

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Username: audtrico (previously AudTrico#7319)

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(PAGE STILL IN PROGRESS)I am a person. A flawed human being who grew up in a way that may or may not clash with your own behaviors and internalized social rules. And hence, I wanted to share a list of things that I want people to be aware of before interacting with me!

I'm not quick to hate
No matter what you do, I find it incredibly difficult to feel anger or hate towards others. I recognize that things that might bother me or make me uncomfortable don't automatically make someone a bad person. We're all different, and we all have our struggles, we all share the same humanity. And thus, to hate others is to hate a part of myself, too.

So if you're ever worried that you did something to make me hate you, that's incredibly unlikely! You'd have to do something so hideously immoral for me to feel that way towards you.

This does not mean, however, that I will tolerate all behaviors or trust everyone with open arms. While I might not hate people, I am working toward confronting unwanted actions regardless of the person and being cautious with people I haven't talked to as much.

I get socially overwhelmed easily
Here's the thing, I grew up being a pretty socially anxious kiddo. While my confidence has improved drastically, traces of this anxiety do still remain! This mainly appears as overthinking my responses or being too overwhelmed to text back within a normal amount of time~Seemingly harmless things that make this worse for me:● Receiving texts made that show very little effort or personality.
ㅤ○ Why: Less information to work with = hard for me to communicate effectively & I get bored of the conversation.
ㅤ○ Example: "hi" "hru" "wyd" "ok" or other one-word responses● Frequent small talk in text, especially if we're only acquaintances
ㅤ○ Why: Brain subconsciously goes into overdrive (how long might the convo be, how much do I disclose, what is the end goal of this?)
ㅤ○ Example: asking how / what I'm doing daily● Being treated as very close by acquaintances
ㅤ○ Why: Feels like the friendship's growth is being rushed or overestimated, makes me uncomfortable. Sort of feels like lovebombing but with words.
ㅤ○ Example: being called "hunny" "sis" "love" by people I barely know● Being treated as extraordinary and out-of-this-world.
ㅤ○ Why: Makes me feel misunderstood and put on a pedestal I didn't ask for. "What happens when they realize I'm not that person? Dissapointment."
ㅤ○ Example: Being called "too innocent for this world"Things I recommend you do instead:● Message me primarily when you have something specific to do or talk about
ㅤ○ Even if you only message me when you need something from me, I honestly prefer that! I appreciate straightforward conversations with a clear goal in sight.
● If you don't have a topic on hand, but wish to talk to me out of boredom, loneliness, or another reason, just say so directly! Much more likely to oblige happily if I know why you're here in the first place.
● Only bring up small-talk at the start of calls, irl meetups, a reaching-out message if it's been a few months since talking, or if I've directly established that I trust you with my thoughts.
● If you don't like communicating in this way, then it's okay to not talk to not want to talk to me! I'm sure there's much better people for you to hang out with who fit your style better. I'd rather you leave now than waste your time trying to be someone you're not for my sake.